SWORD FINGERS

Sword Fingers Steps

• Put your index finger and middle finger together on one hand and point them straight forward as if they were a ray gun. I call this your Sword Fingers.
• Point your Sword Fingers at your friend’s sore shoulder from about six inches to a foot or so away. The distance doesn’t matter just don’t touch the shoulder.
• Now, visualize light, beautiful, healing light or energy, is shooting out of the end of your fingers into your friend’s sore shoulder. (Again, you can also just say it in your mind and know it’s happening.)
• Next, move your Sword Fingers up and down in a chopping motion visualizing the healing light is breaking up the energy blockage in the shoulder. Keep doing this for thirty seconds to a minute.
• Now, you stop the Sword Fingers and open your hand and spread your fingers. Visualize the healing light is flowing from the tips of your fingers and thumb into the area where you’ve just broken up the energy blockage.
• Use your “energy fingers” to take hold of the remaining energy blockage, pull it out and throw it away. Again, do this from six to twelve inches away and don’t touch the shoulder. (An important point here is that there is no good energy or bad energy just too much energy in this case and you are helping to bring energy balance.)
• Continue pulling out the blockage and throwing it away for a minute or two. As you start pulling the blockage out it may feel heavy or sticky like pulling taffy. Some people notice this immediately for others it takes more time.
• Whether you feel the energy or not just know in your mind that it’s happening. When the energy feels lighter or after no more than two minutes stop pulling out the blockage and move to the final step in Sword Fingers.
• Now, visualize beautiful, healing light and energy is flowing from the palm of your hand into the area where you removed the blockage. You might want to use a light pumping motion.
• Continue sending this healing energy into the area for thirty seconds to a minute. This movement helps get the energy flowing through the area again and bring it back into balance.
• As you are sending the energy from your palm, say in your mind, “Your pain is gone. You are completely healed.” “Your blockage is gone. Completely healed.” No need to say it aloud. Just say it in your mind and know it’s happening.
• Finally, give your friend a smile and say to your friend, “Feel better, now.” Don’t ask if the pain is still there. That will focus their mind back on the pain. Give them a positive message. 

taken from http://daily.finerminds.com/mind/healer-chunyi-lin/

wow... now that's quite the SPREAD!

DID A SPREAD REGARDING THE TOUR AND IT CAME OUT QUITE...UM...UH....WELL - HUGE.

20 - JUDGEMENT

Heed the beckoning call of the future. The card in the Challenges/Opportunities position reflects how you can use creativity to turn a crisis or challenge into an opportunity. Judgment in this position is a challenge to redeem yourself and be resurrected. Agree to wake up with a higher new level of discernment, even though outwardly you are in the same old body, the same old identity, the same old world. When this trumpet blows in your soul, it no longer matters who you used to be. External reckoning no longer applies. A higher order calls and you must march to that new drummer.

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4 - OSIRUS

An influential person can pave the way for you. The card that lands in the Situation position refers to the circumstances you find yourself in with regard to your concern. When the Emperor comes up in this position, you may be granted an audience with a powerful individual possessing the wherewithal to help you with your plans. The Emperor administers and governs the realm you wish to enter and it would be difficult for you to achieve your dreams without this person's blessing. You are likely to benefit from the established structure by making a visit to the leader in the field. The support of the Emperor gives you a much better chance of actualizing your dream.

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KNIGHT OF COINS

Do whatever it takes to get your job done correctly and efficiently. The card in the Lesson position represents the personal investment or sacrifice required to derive full benefit from your current situation. The Knight of Coins (in some decks, The Prince) in this position requires that you buckle down to the work you need to do. Necessity is demanding that you stretch beyond your normal comfort zone and let go of any cravings for immediate gratification. There will be rewards, but that's not the point right now. For some reason everybody involved is being called upon to make a heroic effort. Anything less will not be enough. Push has come to shove.

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14 - TEMPERANCE

 Identify and acquire the ingredients that will most help you complete your mission and leave the rest behind. The card in the Advice position suggests a course of action which will harmonize what you want with what is currently possible. Temperance in this position advises you to identify and seek the missing ingredients in your life. Marshal your known skills and abilities and do what needs to be done to complete your mission. Prepare to use spiritual practices, studies or lifestyle changes that can assist you in your quest. A tremendous amount of benefit is available if you can organize yourself and be disciplined at this time.

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2 - WISE WOMAN / HIGH PRIESTESS

When you see an opening, go within yourself. Let peace and quiet be your first priority. The card in the Near Future position indicates which way the wind is blowing with regard to your situation. If you follow the Advice card, however, you can improve on or neutralize tendencies. With the High Priestess in this position, you will soon have an opportunity to retreat into anonymity and privacy. You deserve the refreshment of slipping off your outer identity and diving into the cleansing waters of the soul. You don't have to travel or spend money to escape your day-to-day identity. Insist on some personal time away from needless socializing and work expectations in order to recharge your intuitive batteries. Others will support your retreat into the Silence for awhile. By following this call, you can return to your life and goals with new energy, love, and vigor.

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Well this sure does leave a lot of questions - lets see how this unfolds over the next few days!

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Clearly I have work to do, so I'm a' get at it-

ST3V3

First&Lost4Words

First things first - but before I begin

Let me reintroduce the redundantly unwrapped 

rapping package I been packin within

Off the bat - and a lil off the top

Id take more on but youve declared war on

And all this drama and what not

So rise to the top - like cream of the crop

Circle geometry caught on to me non stop

So now I use astrology to predominantly energize me bottom to top

Into Interstellar portals so planetary 

Phantoms and fairies scare up platters cut rarely

Out of need -but dare us to dream as we cut thru secrecy

Meshing the mixed blessing of fantasy

Sliced beyond what human eyes cant even see

Seeing some searing only seemingly going green

Portrait of reality / Snap a memory for me please

Make this moment last deep within my genes

Because I may not understand my own needs

Little aforementioned / a precursor to get set and go

Riddled with best intentions because you say so

Freely disbursing in red-glow that horny devilish halo

Medal'ish contention slow/ Why just hate/ suspension flow

Then just lay low with mud stuck feet / cleanly suspended from underneath

Repressing memories from being beat you failed to mention to me

First and foremost / The worst is still close

So most resort to outposts of motes /

and with draw bridge withdrawn intentionally gloats

Tight up in spite think im right clenched fist 

I might just mention the real might of this

Cantankerous; In abominable Bliss I Phenomenally Enlist

Like an anomaly science and physics both missed

On both their big to do lists & measly microscopic atom splits

Understanding the mechanics of the unknowable endlessness shrouded in its infinitness

Wishing on stars living your lifespan to at once witness this

Wheres the un-kill switch that flips the scripts to non spontaneous-nest

Scripture got far-cited too rediculous and early-burden worms in dirt dismissed;

Yet read so ubiquitously interpreted so stupidly leaves toxic mist

Over-enriched, poorly ill decipher it -or call it quits!  

and be left steaming. . .?

Once destroying the entire list of ingredients we were needing

Not a lot dont miss a drop but never get caught not dreaming or not believing 

In finishing what you start because your heart was part of your double teaming

So before I begin let me relay back those lines you meant when you had trouble breathing

SJB•2009•07•06

Darkrave, Jungle Feeva & The [moon] light at the end of the Fun?'iLL!/of LOVE

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I had a feeling that there was something/someone 'available' for/to me tonight- even more so than last night (which I slept thru accidentally, anyways) but if I were aware and open enough to realize the opportunity when it presented itself, there was a prize hidden somewhere in my night, and I could feel that it's discovery was beckoning me.  Simply how the day unfolded told me there was much to be appreciated and experienced since the moment I woke up, not having made any plans whatsoever with anyone, because I didn't sleep well, and missing DJ Hype always makes me not sleep well anyways, but on top of that my dreams were very confusing and multi-sided, very international as well, as they often are  thats just abroad interpretation though (lol get it?).  No?  Me either.  

Anyways I awoke to Mike coming in (as usual) and when I finally got out of bed to go shower, Shaunasie had beautiful friends over, Bexx & Sista & Cameron who were celebrating  Bexx birthday the night before so they were in good form and very cheerful to wake up to, I showered and then fed my babies some pineapple and made myself some grilled cheeses and had breakfast to the tune of a text message from Curve saying he wanted to cook for me & rinse and therefore was coming by, so I told him to hurry the fuck up and dont forget to stop at the LCBO.  Which he did, and didn't; respectively.  

Before our walk to Queen video were played with the Ascended Masters Oracle and I pulled the Twin Flames card; which is a great sign that you're about to meet someone who is a soul mate or twin flame (which is stronger than soul mate) and it says:

 "To form such a partnership, you must follow your inner guidance, learn from growth and have patience with divine timing.  Once twin flames find each other, everything in the life reaches new heights of love and light."    You will soon be with your twin flame • keep your heart open stay positive and follow your guidance to manifest your prayers about your love life."

which made sense, because that's kinda of the feeling I had that 'I needed to go out" - when I have that feeling I usually go out because thats when I trust that things will happen in accordance to my desires, when it's literally "calling me" out.

As we were walking back were were discussing going to Darkrave cuz Shaunasie mentioned it earlier when Paul stopped by (YAY!) and chilled long enough to get some energy work done, have a few laughs and meet one of HIS twin flames, Alex (whether they know it or not yet lol).  So not long after we stopped to have a beer at the Black Bull Shaunasie called to tell us we had guest list for the party, and that we had to come, which we were already gonna do, but that just confirmed it.

So on the way to Darkrave walking down Queen St I made a promise to Curve that we both had to 'shoot for the moon' at least once while we were there, because firstly:

-he said "well if you shoot for the moon, and miss, at least youll land in the stars" - but he didnt mean it, he just SAID it.

-I 'shoot for the moon' at pride and really made myself happy by realizing it went better than I thought it would when I introduced myself to the guy I was most attracted to all weekend.

So yeah, anways I just made us make a pact we wouldnt leave Big Bop having not 'shot for the moon' (which is such a gay term to begin with, it's got condentations of ass blasting all over it) at least once.

Big Bop was TONS of fun, it wasnt super busy, but the music was sweet, and we were dancing like it was 1998 or something up in that bitch.  Curve was having a BLAST- it was so much fun just to watch him have this much fun.

He hit it off with a girl that he was digging, but it wasnt till I had been there a bit did I see someone that really caught my attention.  Of course he was the shortest/smallest dude there probably, but he was blond, super cute and just looked like someone as soon as I saw, I wanted to know.  He looked really familiar, in passing I could have easily mistaken him for Peter, or how Peter looked at one time.    Anyways yeah, I was kinda tired and wanted to leave a few times before I actually did , which I totally attribute to the tarot's influence, because since Cameron asked me for a mini-reading in the alley way outside while we were smoking- I had my mini-ohso tarot in my pocket and consulted it when I had the urge to make a decision like leaving, I would be say "show me staying and show me going" and first time it was transformation was in staying and leaving was 'past lives' reversed, which just told me 'the same ol thing' - which for me is usually going home alone/empty handed/unfulfilled/wishing for someone I like to chill with, so I headed back into the club and then saw the dude that I had a feeling about dancing to the drum n bass that had come on at 2, just after Shaunasie left, of course.

I danced for the first part of Statistic's set but once I got a lil tired I was about ready to throw in the towel and convince Curve that we could just rinse at home so we should go do it, but I went out for a smoke by myself and wouldn't you know, that same guy is out smoking all by himself  as well.  So I smoked a whole smoke beside him just trying to get a feel of his energy and perhaps strike up some conversation if I got the feeling what to even talk about lol, but I totally didn't do or say anything-and he just put out his cigarette and went in, as did I a few minutes later, and went back to the room with drum n bass where Curve was macking this girl and totally shooting for the moon like we had said, and good for him!  

Tony (Locked) was spinning at 3 so I wanted to check him out before leaving, and the tarot again showed  thunderbolt in staying (unexpected life changing occurrence) and past lives again if I leave, so I was gonna stick around and make the best of it, and when we went upstairs to check  out Locked's Set, he was also up there dancing by himself (enter divine timing part 2) and so Im like, lets not go just yet, gimmie a sec - then I just admired him dance while I danced/stood behind him thinking "this is the moon, am I gonna shoot for it or not???"  Curve was signing a girl with a sharpie at this point lol, so I stopped paying attention to the dude for a mon or two and when I looked back around he was gone, so I'm like.."argh, okay fuck it- lets just go" and we headed for the door for the last time.

Then as we round the corner (enter divine timing part 3) and who do I notice walking 50m ahead of us by himself??   The DUDE!  he had just left, like one minute before we did, which made me kinda freak because I didnt want to walk out of the club having not taken the opportunity to connect with someone I felt a strong connection with and a desire for again.

So as were walking up to him Im trying to talk Curve out of wing-manning this one for me cuz I wasnt nervous like he assumed - excited rather and a little amazed, cuz this is the perfect opportunity to say something to him, which I didnt really feel before and was confused by, but whatever it all made sense now because listening to my feelings and the guidance put me (and not even for the FIRST TIME) on the sidewalk walking 'home' after the club right next to this guy, whom I walk up to and in passing say "youre over darkrave for the night huh??" or something as equally geek-tacular and we start small talk about the party and about what kinda music we were feeling...and as it turns out - hes not only into drum n bass, he is a jungle dj, and he only lives two blocks away from me.  He said he wasnt really ready to go home yet so I invited him back to my place to spin records and chill, which he gladly accepted.

Once we got back to my place I pulled a card from the Ascended Masters deck and I got Pan (Fertility), and Peter Pansy was my nickname for Peter, whom this guy reminded me of, and Pan's energy is one of fertility but its a strong masculine energy that I can detect very much, and it coming out just affirmed that connection to me further that this was the beginning of something good.  

Im like "Now that's what I'm talking about, I KNEW there was something really special about this guy that I was attracted to, but if I were to guess that out of everyone there, I would meet another wicked talented jungle dj who lives around the corner from me I wouldn't have guessed that close to home at all...ha get it??.  I mean it seems very the same so the 'easiness' in attracting it is obvious, but the beauty in how it all played out, and how once we chilled and rinsed together, the meaning and appreciation and awesomeness grew and grew the more we shared.  I had him pick a card from the Ascended Masters Oracle and very the first card he chose was beautiful and told much of the situation unfolding, which made me super happy, to say the least.

He went back to his place to grab a crate of records and brought me back some bomb cron too, jus for the hell of it, giving me bomb cron is like giving the cookie monster mrs fields or some shit - its a damn good way to make my eye's go (even more) googly...had I not had the tiger eye, of course. 

So hours are going by were rinsing tunes and talking about jungle and everything, and he takes a very sharp interest in the spiritual aspect of the things I have around my room and what I decided to share with him and when I showed him some stuff about music he said how much he liked to read and to write the name of some stuff down for him to check out cuz he loves books and reads a lot...he asked specifically for the Flower of Life books too, which is an awesome sign for someone who is interested in learning and growing because those books have it all, but few recognize how much stuff is actually covered in the two volumes. . .awesome

It cracked me up most when he said

 "I'm really glad you guys said something to me on the street!!!  ...How random was this?!?"

Nothing could be more true and more false at the same time.

WE BOTH SHOT FOR THE MOON, AND CAME UP WITH SOMETHING 

"A HUNDRED TIMES MORE BRILLIANT THAN THE SUN"

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WELL DONE!

BET THE STARS FEEL THE RIGHT BUNCHA NITWITS NOW, HUH?

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big up Curve for lettin loose and shootin for the moon and gettin it, for bein a good sport, for being positive and inspiring and a good friend, for the pizza he made and for rinsin out his soul..LMAO (enter Divine timing NO 4) and sneaks in Thunder for the drop as I write this...

big up shaunasie for being so much light and leading the way ...and for being smart

big up Jeff for being a bod mon - it was really good to meet someone solid and pure good vibes, and big up for only spinning for two years and being as wicked as he is - master artist material for sure.  Thats only the tip of the iceberg.

big up Paul for coming by and chilling and inspiring me to do the wrestling workshops and to show him some moves, even though I was too enthralled in watching vintage matches on TV @ the time lol, and for meeting Alex lmao doppleganger hangar is open!

BiG Up  Playful Cameron,Beautiful - Birfday Glow Bexx, Warm Lovin Sista who fed me, Jonny K (who was the first person we met outside of Big Bop after we left and befriended afterwards a couple years back in a similar situation), Dragonfly, Locked & Statistic! 

WHAT A WILD NIGHT, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST ME AND CURVE BEIN TWIN FLAMERS LOL....WOW.

-V'1LLiY Frickin Happy!

A Link To The Past! Great Scott!

past notes / writing that was done on facebook can be easily found here:

 

http://www.facebook.com/notes.php?id=517064529

With Friends Like These. . .(pt 2)

Since I have been touched by unexpected showers of appreciation and love tonight - Not only once, but on multiple occasions (three at least!), and this one was very special so I wanted to post it, anonymously of course...and because it was typed so a lot easier to quote! he he.   Thank you to all who reached out to show me some love when I really needed it, It made the world of difference.  You know who you are...

"you will always have a special place in my heart Steve...

your knowledge and wisdom, forgiveness and tru friendship helped me thru a ruff time...

so imma come visit real soon..."

Whole•Punch•Doubt

Whole?Punch?Doubt?

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my hand hurts but for once the demand was dispersed appropriately

for once I took a stand to put a stop to this planned hurt planted seed

not just in me but for every lie and impurity I allowed to seep into me

you loved me so much you turned on me and made me into your enemy

why else would one run so fast every day away 

is it the unconditional living circumstances gave oh well anyways

washed ashore on beaches we danced upon in our first days

Is what you fear so damn good you deny wanting it in the first place

I wont allow my feelings to control me or spiral much like yours

I will allow myself to feel them however, and let them change their course

you may twist and miss but I'll have protected the friendships true accord

because you are not to be trusted your lessons cost much more room and bored

can two people be paging to receive waving the flag for the same great upstage

to put a stop to the abuse and turmoil is to unravel this past age

and put forth an immediate blast of mental scrabble in animal cage

man dont lash out as you dash out take this gash out of your parrot mouth rage

tough lough is that what you say youve given me? I see

well from what I see all you've given me is excuses and insanity

and I give you the benefit you never intented to be handing back to me 

unevenly but backhandedly living out of fear and anger impractically 

Ive struck from fear and Ive struck from anger and powerlessness too

This message was meant to stay stuck but my touch was never designed to hurt you

Escpecially since this release of you was one you even asked me to do

Word for word I still carried out every action I said and you- yourself; couldnt do

Sorry to say though when your face tried to look away it stayed so-

Unforgiving staying cold vacant space saying I dont know no warm no glow 

No form for showing how much it hurt to not just be able to say so long ago?

In too deep all your hurt words are aimed to divert me and to be a hidden torpedo

I didnt think Id see the day when even you stooped this low

but that doesnt mean Im willing to leave myself outside duped by your frigid cold

your lack of original masking in running from what your attracting truth be told

is a sign that there's a lot of youth still to grow to let any of your true wisdoms flow

What's so genuine about you and what isn't really real- 

what do you want the world to think about how you really feel?

do you think you're the first to try and deny by opposite conceal?

and defy that truth that lies in your eyes as a disguise youre not willing to reveal

The cat is out of the bag and its me ow? paws? the holding back

Somehow you've always known you should be so crafty moulding that

Controlling power/love/pain/unfolding nine-lives over a gain game over splat

Hoping never having to be publically overseen not owning up to that

Why did you play along if you were always free to do as you pleased

Were you too used to the truth being the truest way to ease

That controlling me emotionally isn't(?) the result of how you really felt about me

That ironically your need to be the center of gravity was out of my inability

Your thinking isn't so Zen- if you think so, I think you should guess again

Craved sea-mental set sail so easily through due course off the deep end

I thought you would have used more force to defend your truest friend

Than walk the plank and pretend that someone put you all through this again

Cuz you're just the most popular and oh so very smooth 

That the more your surround yourself with weaker-thans the more you lose

You can manipulate their emotions by witholding the just do's 

Must you must be joking if you think I'll secretly buy into your molding ruse

To see someone that built me up this high; just to break me down

Makes me want to believe the obviouly lie that its all fake and meaningless now

Mistakes at this space cant be made and it's too late to be screaming this loud

Since you're defeated in an imaginary area there is no need to be with me now

I Realize that  your lies had to be disguising conceptualizing I victimizing you

I dont need anyone to side with because I know that you and I know the truth

I know those real eyes I always first-prized when I looked into

That your feelings for me are just too much for you to persue just to undo

So I did it for you- as a favor to your 'desired 'goal

You wanted to run away because truth and desire were about to take their toll?

You couldn't magically cast a way with a heart sewn ungreat and so greatly unfull

So you pushed away your love boat instead of docking your beautiful boyant soul

Lies and twists and turns and rifts of hurt and pain ungiven gift exchange

Why do you despise my tries to out your cries I realize you exert in shame

Why don't you excercise more than flirts that keep you immursed in perverse game

Immature so unsure hurting people in a blur projected to stay the same

If you dont run away youll never know what you missed

But one who stands tall despite fear of fall more like geurilla in mist

You ll get more of an inheritance through sigourney weaver's kids

I cant believe our friendship sunk in such shallow waters as this.

Twist of Fate or spill of illusion all smoke and mirrors

Missed a date with no wish to fulfill but collusion poked through your tears

Making up bright excuses to blame others for your broken chandeliers

come knocking some new cents into you may pay huge divid[ed]ends; too dear?

Now that you know it wont be shocking no more mocking got that, queer?

Ill be stopping and dropping all those feelings I had about just how near

You were to my heart why did I ever start; your need was abundantly clear

You pushed away love because of so much bullshit your ego made up in fear

Taken advantage or taken for granted we rode the mind buster home unemptyhanded

Why is it you're caught up with demanding your freedom as all the fun  disbanded

Something so true you go ahead and your abuse ensues the blues, dammit

So now I choose to turn my back to remove the smooth knife you nicely planted

I aint making statements that should make our co-creation fade in traces

Unless we face this with truth and not wash away the foundation of what made this

To whose dismay anyway and at what cost today does anybody care to save this

Didnt enough trust and transformation change enough antibodies to appreciate the greatness

Letting you let loose losing leapord spots quick like duck duck goose madness

repetitive wear and tear stagnation didnt seem ill faded by your unlucky badness

After all your heart-earned palpatations you burned yourself at the stake in black bliss

You came clean butt dirty tricks up your sleeve to reveal true texture of prickly cactus

When you use people to get what you want by witholding, bold flirts & taunts

I can forgive because it seemed we all had equally different needs and wants

I let you deep into a place where vulernability was indeed so non non-chalante    

I thought you were a friend that was family till the end interested in what I really want

So lights out is the tale of the tape wormmy mistake Tyson bit the iron mic too late

So rather than instigate I will lie back and reawaken when im greatful for this toothache

Anti-cavity friendship seal I guess what felt most real has come & left just a bad taste 

Except when you tasted your own when I kissed your face with your own flavor of fake

Even when you didnt want to you couldnt avoid the kinda magic two magicians ...can make

Well one musician, one electrician, one mindful enough to offer friendly addition you take

But then blackout ensued after natural selection that made our true nature bloom into fruition state

When tazers became the tool your own lightning almost thundered into comatose conditioned fate

My hand hurts but dammed if I will fall, no pitch no catch no knuckle ball

I promised myself I wouldn't hit the switch when I cracked and broke humpty dumpty's downfall

I guess this means things wont ever be the same or maybe they'll never change at all

Maybe one day we'll rearrange this screwy stage as more than a dramatic casting call.

Steven James Blair 

©˙2009

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