Lots of jokes to go around- most definitely - but definitely comin' in on a serious tip as well. Lot of things seem to be changing for a lot of people, including myself - whether we like it or not, it seems as if we're all coming face to face with those things that we have been putting off, shoving aside or not paying enough attention to from out past because the universe is calling out to us to let go of past ideas of what we are, who we have been and what we can become. Deaths in the family, illnessess, seperation, people moving out, people moving away, people losing their jobs, a recession - these are all 'bad things' as we tend to think of them but really they are our blessings in disguise, they are the catalyst to our growth and our advancement as we endure more and more challenges that if we stay in the same old perspectives-may seem like hardship, struggle or cause/excuse for depression.
A lot of my day today was intended to address those thoughts feelings and stories inside of ourselves that threaten to keep us locked in the same old emotional 'CIRCLES OF CONFUSION' (vid posting soon) that until we can realize our own patterns of behaviour and willingly step outside of them, we are 'doomed' to repeat over and over and over again until we choose to bring more awareness to our mind (thoughts/feelings/stories), body (language/healing/movement) and spirit (connection/trust/faith) so that our intentions are aligned with our strengths and we are able to create the best possible outcome for all because there is an intention of balance because only through balance in all areas, can you recieve all the wonderful things that the universe has to offer and reward one who finds balance and their own true center, their (the) Source.
I wish it was easier to do than to just understand the process..., because the Universe KNOWS I am finding it difficult at times to remain balanced, and I can see more and more clearly just how my habiltual patterns from past years (decades, even) have been limited by my imbalances, whereas I just thought I was 'this way' or 'that way' because 'of this reason from the past'. Now I can see that those things I identified with were not always for my own good, infact, anything I seem to identify myself as only becomes a limitation to all the other things that I am.
for example, thinking:
"I am gay because in the past, I liked sexual experiences involving dudes/cock way better than I liked sexual experiences involving girls/pussy so If I have to pick one or the other, I'm a HUGE homo, because I like guys waaaaaay more."
isn't really doing me any favors, because although I may have had a disposition to giving/recieving those male/female energies differently in whatever imbalance I chose for my life, thru my state in the womb/born with/how I was taught to give and recieve love (through my genes and parents examples) (dont foregt both sets, too yikes!)- it only makes sense that there is a reason why the cliche 'Best of Both Worlds" exists, because IT IS TRUE.
Are you ready for it? Cuz I'm gonna come out and say that I dont think anyone is gay OR straight.
I think that gender and sexuality are two different things that we have wrapped up together throughout history (and religion) in order to satisfy our fears of 'the other' and justify our own inate need in this day 'to be allowed to just exist'. So we begin to break down, seperate, analyize, categorize, label, define and identify these things within ourselves so that we can..JUDGE EACH OTHER(?!)'S right's and experiences (my pin the fairy tail on the d'onch key poster just fell off the wall at this moment) as something we can either live with, or not live with, and banish if they dont meet our required goals/standards/perspectives/perceptions/expectations of what we desperately, (and very needlessly) define ourselves as what we do, or do not want associated with what or who we think we are, and if it's not something we are willing to associate with, why the FUCK do we always have to rally ..against? the 'opposing' (in reality - just the opposite) side.
People are most afraid of what they dont understand, right?
for the most part im just talking about people's fears being within themselves & within others. Sexuality and gender then become something to FEAR or OPPOSE or even FIGHT AGAINST for some, because our lack of understanding says that it's a THREAT to us, who we are, and what can be tollerated. What we cannot bear to think about having inside of ourselves-unless its a man's penis inside of a woman's vagina in the one "way that it's supposed to be" , or so says many many Religions around the world.
I always used to look at things like 'thats the reason why I am the way I am" and I viewed my past as a reason/'excuse' to have all the negative qualities about myself that I didnt like, wasnt proud of or wanted to use in defense of my behaviour/need/lack/action/fear that I repeated over and over I dont want to do that anymore. I dont want what I think I was or am or should be to limit what I could be in the future that might be the exact opposite of what I thought I might be ten years ago, so how the hell do I know what I am and what I am not? I AM EVERYTHING, I AM NO-THING, I am not opposed to being anything because, it too shall pass.
Im not gay. Im not straight, (duh) and I cant really put those labels on anyone else I know cuz no one is either ALL black or ALL white - THE RAINBOW IS INBETWEEN. I am open to explore whatever the universe sends my way to feel good about, or at least try to hold that perspective until it too becomes something new.
Body, mind and spirit combined and anything is possible.
"I am whatever you say I am, If I wasnt, than why would I say I am?? I dont know maybe thats jus the way that I am."
-Eminem
-Eminem
to know who you are not, you must first have an idea of who you are INSIDE and why you chose to be alive NOW.
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shes knockin but even the knocker dont wanna hear it!
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